I thought I’d try writing out some of my fears, mostly to see if I can categorize and extrapolate on them to understand them and myself a bit better. We’ll see. Anyway, here they are: -Rejection, typically of any kind, no matter if I care about being approved of by the person, group, or institution […]Read more "Things I fear"
“Will I ever get married?” is a question I’ve always asked myself but rarely ever felt the answer wasn’t somehow definite. I knew I would get married, buy a house, have kids, and all that jazz because it was going to happen. Of course it would, how could it not? It may sound silly to […]Read more "The Story and the Plan"
I think everyone has experience being an outsider, being outcast, being unwanted. If you never have… congratulations, I guess? I… don’t know how you managed that but… that’s good, then? But for everyone who has, it’s a terrible experience, made all the more worse when you are the sole exclusion. Whether it’s from a group […]Read more "Let me in"
Hey so, it is Christmas now. Yeah, I know, it really snuck up on all of us this time. You may be thinking, “Um, it’s July. It is not Christmas right now.” And you’d be right. But you’re also wrong. It is Christmas now, I don’t know what to tell you. Thankfully, since it came […]Read more "It is Christmas"
This isn’t a “why I am a feminist” post. I am going to talk a bit about myself, but I don’t like the idea of framing this post as “why this is important to me,” because one of the things I’ve learned early on is that in the pursuit of bettering myself and my understanding […]Read more "How to get out of the way"
So I’ve talked a lot about events in my own life and how they’ve effected my struggles with mental illness. And one of the things I’ve learned is not to get caught up in the past and what could have been. But there is one thing I want to look back on here. It’s something I’ve only found […]Read more "What it means to matter"
I often feel like a prisoner in my own head. Like I’m trapped inside, and can see, hear, and feel things from the outside world, but I just can’t truly reach out. Like I’m missing a sixth sense that everyone else has that allows them to experience and really be apart of the world. It’s […]Read more "I may never be well"